Hi Mr. West, my name is Zaim Berisha. I'm 19 years old and I live in New York. To be honest with you, I did not write this letter to you because of this contest, but because of how you recently have taught me the true meaning of life and relationships that follow. I know this sounds like you've heard it before, but I met this girl in high school in 2005. Her name is Beatriz de Jesus. Mr. West, I tell you she is such a smart, ambitious, pretty, girl, that it was so hard to be attracted to her. I had to be with her because I knew the type of female she was, and I felt like the girl your suppose to meet later on in life when you get married, was right in front of my face. Since I was pretty popular in high school, it gave me the confidence to talk to her. We immediately hit it right off, the way I knew we would. A couple of hours later we were walkin miles conversing with one another. Mr. West it felt really good to have that one girl that you can lay down with in Central Park, and talk until the sun goes down and it's time to go.
To speed time up we ended up having a 3 year relationship to say the least. We had our ups and downs but I believed we were rock solid. A couple of days before my birthday on August 21, she broke it off with me because we were both going off to College and she knew it wouldn't work. Why not try? It's been so long. I was with her from 16' to 19 years old. I stayed faithful while my friends were out with girls all night long. I put so much into making sure she wouldn't have another guy like me. And now she had thrown it in the trash.
A couple of weeks ago I heard your song Heartless. Don't get me wrong, I listen to your music, this is not the first song I've heard by you. Your very talented. While I was listening to the lyrics, I was going crazy in my mind. It was taking me so long to write my feelings on a piece of paper. My heart was in so many pieces that I couldn't focus. I had never been like that in my life. I just wanted to isolate myself from everybody and try to relocate the pieces of my heart. Listening to your lyrics made me realize little by little that I had to stop blaming myself. One of the bars you spit was, "they don't know what we've been through/they don't know about me and you." I started asking myself, how could she just throw everything we had for 3 years in the garbage. It's like she was so heartless about the situation like our relationship was a joke. I'm texting her one day and she texts me nothing in life lasts forever. Your song, Heartless began playing in my head continuosly. My mind started clearing up, and I started to see who the real was from the fake. The people that would hold you down aside from the ones that say they would. She wrote me a lot of love letters, and a lot of cute things but what dows that mean Mr. West. Not a damn thing anymore. I know this letter has been rather long, but i just wanted to get it off ym chest. Thank you very much, Mr. West. Thank you for everything you have given to me through your music.